5am.

The sounds of a rustled bag and plastics echoed into M's room where he was sleeping. Lai was getting ready to go back to Malaysia. M instantly woke up to see him, with Kavin just moving down to his place on the other room in the same building.

However, it was 5am.

A time not so amazing in M's books. Weary eyes and overlooked moods covered the faces of the three men. And so they waved a temporary goodbye to their friend Lai.

These days, M felt oppressed. Somewhat on a grip. Things happens where he doesn't need it to happen. Hectic situations surrounds his week.

Recently someone's been feeling down. His instinct tells him that. But he could not help; he was scared to be a bother, already an unpainted picture on her wall, already a darken star in her sky. He'd hope to relief her of her sadness. But, she herself, would not do so.

Vodka.

The end of exams means a sigh of relief for M. He has much time to spare, going out with old friends and catching up with latest news.

Recently he just got hold of Final Fantasy Tactics A2: Grimore of the Rift. A game he always wanted to play and finally got it for an emulator on the PC. He can NOT stop playing it...

The end of semester means maintainence for Vanilla, his guitar. He had a bit of trouble in the beginning...but finally got patched up at the Valley. Meanwhile, he's looking for a Boss RC2 Loop Pedal station....

And just right now he just got back from the Reiji Night Club. Was amazing night with 4 friends of his. The club helped him get rid of his worries. And he thinks he drank too much...and choked on his 4th vodka shot. He felt sad after that. Now he's just writing random bullshit on this blog of his...

Ijyou.

"We end this tommorow."

He mumbled to himself, before he tucked himself to bed.

Sleepless.

The anger within him was rising; M really really really hates waking up just to do some stupid crap of an enrolment, then go back to sleep. Disturbs his life cycle and his best friend, sleep. At least he will finally learn some Japanese (Level 2).

The sleepless nights got him to dream about very very weird things these days. Last night's was no exception. M found himself a koala bear that could sing Disney Songs, and ate lamb chops for dinner. He must be getting crazy.

And on Sunday, Story of the Year with supports Saosin and Blessthefall will be playing in Brisbane. He'd hope to go because STOY are pretty good, and very good at lives but, the burden of studying already adding to his aching mind.

And 4 days to exams...

Starlit.

"I wanna travel far away. Just glide through space with a spaceship, with only myself as the crew, or maybe with a dog."

When M was small and naughty, his dream was to be a pilot. That dream shattered when he watched too much TV, played too much computer games for him to get these silly glasses. Today the starlit sky made him wonder, will we be able to travel to and fro in space?

Gazing histerically at the brightly coloured stars and galaxies.
The vast wonders of the universe surround Earth.
The endless beauty of the universe indulges the mind of humans alike.

Will it be something like Star Wars? He'd like that. He might even have powers that no one even knows. But for now, he'll just look from the bottom of planet Earth, of how the mysterious universe slowly changes to its desire.

A very dissapointed M didn't get any studying done today...due to the willingness of his friends being chatty. And some strange miracle happened; magically M's MP3 player appeared before his holy highness. Well more like, it was in the pocket of his jacket. A second level of stupidity entered him.

M started watching ヤマトナデシコ七変化 drama (Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge) alongside his new anime. Pretty funny, considering its based on the manga/anime.

World Cup 2010. Tommorow.

5 days to exams...and now with music. And his feet smells.

テガミバチ。

New TV shows seems to perk M's interest all the time. テガミバチ (Tegamibachi), caught his interest and provoked him to download it. The hero of the anime, Gauche, has amazing clothes; M feels like cosplaying as him...but the life of an university student was poor enough to afford clothing of his sort.

Something else happened. M was always clumsy, and forgetful. Every few weeks, he decides to leave something or someone behind and forgets about it. Much like the other day where he left his oversized orange IKEA umbrella in 7-8. Then another disaster has struck; his amazingly awesome Sony MP3 player decided to take a hike and jumped off a cliff so M can't find it. Hopefully it will magically appear itself.

And now, there are 6 days towards exams, and he's already tired of studying...and now without music.

Fromthedistant.

She doesn't know but, sometimes its killing himself from within. The way out is so thin, of a fine thread. The beating heart compressed together, stopping the blood flow over him. Sometimes he just wants to know what he was, who he was, why was he doing so, what did he do.

"What went wrong perhaps?" He asked. He could not answer.
"I should stop." He hesitated. He could not stop.
"Breath another air, maybe." He said. He could not find the same air.

What did he want?

To share the same colour, the same air, the same view. He wishes but untrue. Even for one single second, if his shoes were worn by her, he'd hope she understands that from the distant, he'd like her to see, from his eyes, his clouds and the blue sky he longed for all these years...

Rift.

A sweet time in the library excludes M from the outside world. As the study day turns towards the darken sky, he blurred into a minor sleep. M felt he's going down in a spiral, towards an empty rift...

What was there to see at the end ? Peril? Despair? Suffering?

His hands stretched out.

Who could it be, the one that will grab these tainted hands?

 A figure came to light; the sweet scent that he used to know.

The figure brought a sincere smile to him

The rift became an obstacle...

 He could not reach it, and his eyes awaken...

 He looked at his MP3 player, and it was already night.

"Pack up, let's go fill my stomach."

Upon leaving, he left an unsightly expression behind that faded away.

Goofy.

The lights are off, and the bright room dims into the darkness. M felt a nostalgic moment. Goofy Movie; a movie that he used to watch when he was a kid, used to inspire him a lot. The blackened room lit up of the Disney logo, and M took a few hours off his studies to watch both The Goofy Movie and Extremely Goofy Movie.

As this moment, M will enter a hardcore study mode. A full day in the library will hopefully help him through his exams; during childhood he dissapointed everyone too much by failing exams. Now, a sense of guilt and accomplishment surrounds him, leading him to study countless of hours to not dissapoint his parents.


However, after watching the two Goofy Movies, he felt a desire to watch movies in the cinema...but who would go with him during this crucial time of exams? No one.

Message.

Crisitan and the rest left a message on M's laptop during the BBQ night. Although it was stupid, M felt grateful for having friends like these.

Martin Hi!
I'm Jisoo.
You don't hang out with me anymore.
I don't like you.
I hope you buy a laptop for Cristi.
Bye bye :D

haha

Martin!
It's Cristi.
I love you secretly.
Bye

Martin!
It's Kavin.
I love you more than Cristi.
Bye.

Martin!
It's Lai.
I love Cristi and Kavin.
So stay away from them.
Bye.

Invasion.

Everyone arrived at M's house last night with overestatic moods and a bucket full of stories. Kinda reminded him of Lord of the Rings, where the horde of Sauron's armies attacked Minas Tirith in the 3rd trilogy. The whole house was frantic and chaos; everyone was talking and drinking. It was a sight to behold. And it came with a dire consequence; a garbage dump of a kitchen.

Although it wasn't as long as last year's 4am swimming pool party, the atmosphere was great. But in the background, M was running back and forth trying to entertain every guest that was there.


Before M said to his roomate that he will take the party outside. However another group was BBQing outside , so there weren't any space left...so the kitchen became the new black. He thinks that he pissed him off and was not looking forward to meet him in the morning...if he ever does.

Clean.

A minute ago M was confronted by his very reserved roomate who didn't look too happy seeing the food and drinks in the fridge. The roomate, whom M do not even know his name after knowing he existed for 1 year, was going to complain that it might be noisy and he's studying for final exams. M hastily mentioned that the party was going to be outside. A closely shaved bullet...

And now, M, like a bee frantically looking for honey, is cleaning his room and dumping rotten crap into tens of plastic bags...but only after 5 minutes of cleaning, he glanced at his guitar and started playing it.

Beef.

University's over. Yesterday M went to purchase heaps of meat for the hungry hearts BBQ tonight. He was worried; he doesn't know the head count that will invade his humble room and therefore do not know what food should he be cooking.

Last night, Lai, M's friend, proceeded to take off the heating system in M's shower that resulted in the water being amazingly cold. M went in and out to fix the heater, and on the third try, he went out the garden. He dropped his glasses then, so instinctively went to pick it up. For some magical reason, the sliding door behind him chose to come off its railings and drop on his head and this added another level of stupidity within M.

Other than that, the dream to visit Japan is coming true. Everything was booked; flights, accomodations. All was there left to do was, to set foot in the land of the rising sun. M doesn't really care if there was plans or not; he just wants to go everywhere in the 2 weeks that were given. Maybe he'd like a hair cut there...

Prince.

What does it take to be a Disney prince?

Is it courage?
Is it confidence?
Is it honor?
Is it greed?
Is it for the one you love?
Is it out of respect?

Not any of that. To be a prince you must be a badass like Dastan, from the Prince of Persia movie, 2010. The epitome of badass, comparable to Tony Stark from Iron Man.

No Disney Prince would back flips in the most amazing situations, fights with dual wielded sabres, jumps on every roof imaginable, took a whole castle by himself, runs away from ostriches, kills himself to prove that he was innocent, dodges billions of arrows, and turns back time to save the world and lived to tell about it. Dastan shuts every prince up with his overwhelmingly badass moments.

M thought Disney's Prince of Persia was amazing. Pretty decent story, pretty good action. Now he was presented this question:

What if he had the power of the dagger? What would he undo?

He would turn back time to undo one of his biggest mistakes in his life.

His love.

Defy the future? He wishes.

furawa.

When I met you, it defintely wasn't by chance
Without noticing it, I remember that wind.
Until when will our journey continue?
When I noticed it, they were blooming.

Wind up the clock and play back every day
The one that screams what I dislike, I'm chasing this shadow
day by day
Are you ready? It is a race to that place where the bad memories grow
We always made some noise every where...

Even if I can't say "thanks" easily, I hate that part of myself
Even if no word exits my mouth...
Deep in my heart, they're searching for a way out.


Anything and everything has become scattered.
Broken and vanishing
But even so we believe in the days spent together
Some things will never change...flower.

Cause your broken pieces escape and fall in the palm of my hand
I'll get them and put them back together again
Like making a puzzle about you, yeah
Uh..We made a harmony just like a flower's memory
The way we shine is like diamond ring, so I wanna say to you

BACK-ON - flower

Gawai.

It's that time of year. The day of merry men and many drinks from the tribes people of Sarawak Borneo, Malaysia. The day of many parties and celebrations throughout the tribes houses.

M was too far away from home to celebrate Gawai, and felt a sense of guilt within him. He hasn't done so for a long while. Gawai day is a rice harvest festival celebrated by the Iban Headhunters of Sarawak, Malaysia. M himself is an Iban. Moreso that he wanted to go back home, and forget the worries that have been troubling him for the past few weeks.

But seeing his friends made him think otherwise. The coming Friday would have a BBQ delight at M's house, equipped with a pool, a basketball court, and a BBQ area. So maybe that's a good enough Gawai substitute for the lost Iban here in Australia...

Nice shoes.

A funny thing happened earlier; a presentation for M's subject was on today. His job was to present an input signal that's been fiddled around and giving a desired output (yeah boring stuff). However the pressure was unbearable; many panicked, including himself.
 
The lecturer came over to check his work, then M noticed something; the lecturer has new shoes. M figured if he could be nice to the lecturer, he might relief himself from the panic...and gain some marks...

"Nice shoes."

The lecturer laughed briefly then looked through the presentation.

Well let's just say it didn't go as well as M hoped for...